Journal: Date 1/7/08

I was straightening up a drawer last week, and came across an old journal.

I have done a lot of reading about getting sober, staying sober, and moderation.  Over and over I have read that if you try to moderate, it can take years to get back to Day 1 again.

It is true.

After this lame attempt at trying to quit drinking, I never tried again until 11/30/13.

That was 5 years later.

What a waste of time…

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11 thoughts on “Journal: Date 1/7/08

  1. It was true for me. Like you said, what a waste of time. I relapsed one time and almost didn’t get back at all. 15 years and like they say, it wasn’t any better. 🙂

    • I remember spending a lot of time thinking about quitting. I don’t remember ever writing it down because then I might actually have to DO it. This entry surprised and saddened me.

  2. HA I just wrote about reading my old journals. So many times I wrote I needed to quit drinking. My journal from 2007 has many “pink cloud” enteries before I thought I could moderate. I think it is one thing to get advice or read about other experiences, but it is like a slap in the face to see your struggles in your own handwriting.

  3. I’m sure I wrote that same phrase, “I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired” one time in a letter to myself, along the “moderate now, or quit” lines. That’s certainly how I felt. It’s scary how the years can then fly after you get that “Oh fuck it” feeling. It’s good that you kept the journal… so motivational for staying on track now. xxx

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