As I was drifting off to sleep last night, I was thinking about how much my life has changed since getting sober. The first change being that I was DRIFTING OFF TO SLEEP, not passing out. There are times that sleep comes quickly, and other nights I lie there and thoughts drift through my head. This is what came to me last night.
I want to THANK each and every one of you who has taken time to read my blog, follow my story, and add comments.
The evening I read the Good Housekeeping article about Amy from Soberbia, and Belle from Tired of Thinking about Drinking, was life changing. I emailed Belle from the gym the next day, where I was trying to sweat out another hang over. I WAS Tired of Thinking about Drinking, sick and tired. I told her I was ready to start the 100 day Challenge, sign me up.
Unfortunately, there was still a half of a bottle of wine in the refrigerator, I drank it, as any good alcoholic would, because it should not go to waste, and who else would get rid of it if I didn’t?
The next day, I had to email Belle and tell her to restart my Day 1. That day was 11/30/2013. I have not had a drink since.
I relied on Belle and her Team 100 for quite some time. As I got deeper into the blogging world, I began to read about AA and what a fantastic program it was, and how many people had found kindred souls and fantastic mental help through the program. It took me about 3 weeks to get enough courage to walk through the doors.
I threw myself into the program. I went and bought the books, started the reading, attended all sorts of meetings trying to find the place I could call home. I had some good experiences and some bad ones, but I kept at it until I found that comfortable spot and people I could relate to.
I then went on a quest for a sponsor. One of the men at my home meeting gave me his wife’s number. We met, but did not click. I posted about my struggle to find a sponsor, and a wonderful sober blogger offered to do it. She became my sponsor in April, and I haven’t looked back.
Ours is an unusual situation, I would imagine. We live in different states. We have had to make our relationship work via email, text and telephone. I remember how fast my heart was beating during our first telephone call, I was scared. Since that time, she has become not only my sponsor, but my confidant, my close friend, and my true north. We finally got to meet during my travels this summer, and it was like we had been friends forever. Thank you, M, I truly love you.
Thank you to all of you. Thank you to Belle, Amy, to Christy at Running on Sober, to Paul at Message in A Bottle and Jeni, who all helped me in early sobriety. I mean really, really helped me, as in throwing me continuous life preservers while drowning help.
Thank you to all the other wonderful bloggers who have stopped by to leave me tidbits of wisdom while I wind my way down this ever changing path of sobriety. I truly would not be here without you. I begin and end my days reading your words.. Every one of you have added some wisdom to some part of my journey.
I wouldn’t be here without you. Thank you. I am truly blessed to have found this wonderful world.